Today we continued to work on discovering our root cause to suffering. I have to be honest. I really am having a hard time connecting emotionally to my root patterns. I’m aware of what they are, but with the use of natural medicine and healing techniques I’ve used in the past, I truly believe I have made completions with these OLD emotional mamakaras (self image) and extinguished them from my physical being. I can say that with confidence because I know for example long ago I had a hard time standing up to men and I use to get urinary tract infections all the time. With a homeopathic remedy and an acknowledgement of that issue, both issues where resolved!
I’m seeing how much I truly live in a state of bliss a majority of the time. Yes, there are moments when a situation occurs, I have an emotional and physiological response, but then I make those completions in the moment and move on. I don’t hold onto emotions.
Seems simple enough.
I have to admit, today was challenging for me because I had to sit through 2+ hours of listening to others discover their internal suffering. It was group therapy. I immediately moved from a space of openness to closed off. I became irritable and frustrated and impatient. I just wanted to scream to the roof tops, “go to basic therapy before you come.” I couldn’t believe how many people have never looked at themselves. Ok, I know, harsh! I take full responsibility that I am making an unfair judgment. I promised I would write this blog with complete authenticity, so I’m being very honest and authentic about my every experiences. I guess with the hopes that those who read can see how powerful a process like this can be and maybe this reaction is something that needs addressing.