After yesterdays session of identifying our Mamakara (our inner identity), Anhakara (our outer identity- how we project our selves to others) and our Anyakara (how the world sees us). I was able to notice the disconnect or imbalances in certain identities.
So, I thought, lets play with it! For example, when I began to do root pattern work (as you saw in my previous blogs – me pointing out where I thought a root pattern was- a place in my life where there was conflict), I took that inner image statement, saw how I began to show the world the opposite statement and then how my view of others or the world or even my response to how others may view me if contradictory to my outer image had a statement of its own. Ok that was a mouth full. Just follow me.
For example: I formed a belief as a young child due to an experience of powerlessness that I am not good enough. This is my inner image. What I show the world is that I’m perfect. When the world challenges this beautifully crafted visage, my defending statement is people are hard on me, stuck in their own *&#@ and judgmental (basically I have an attack on them of why they are not good enough, so I feel good enough). Side note: I’m not resonating with the last part because I vview the world as pretty helpful and loving, but this is the basis of the exercise.
So, I’ve actually intuitively done work like this on myself because I enjoy working on my own progression to be 1) complete with myself and others AND 2) so I can offer the same services to my patients. Turns out, I happen to be innately good at process work! We are actually doing this exercise right now in class and I’m excited to share with you how to pull it out of you!
I think SwamiJi will probably do the energetic cleansing. But the awareness this exercise is going to offer us all will be a great way to form completions and act from a space of integrity, authentically with responsibility and guess what, that will enrich our lives and the lives of others.
Thing is, these visages we have created for ourselves. Although they may have created a lot of success for us in our lives, that success is never truly fulfilling because it comes from a place of lack, a place of overcompensation, a place of non-integritous- inauthentic and unwillingness to take responsibility. Therefore, any success from that space can not create true fulfillment. The imbalance affirmed your false image and contradicted your truest inner belief. There is unfortunately no success in proving your inner truth wrong, there is only more pain or lack of fulfillment because you do not believe the success your false identity created for you.
Now you have to change how you view yourself! Not by forcing a new image on you, but by healing the original insult and inner image creation. By forming a completion with your inner self at that time in your life. Declare that moment as complete, take responsibility authentically and with integrity for that moment in time and you will then be enriched!