Finally, we arrived in Badidi at Swamiji’s Ashram.
Two steps into the welcome center and bombarded with chaos. I personally felt like my experience went from “individual” to “corporate”, but I silenced my inner critic and completed my registration. Kailen and I were a little taken back by our surroundings and living quarters. Ahh and we can’t room together because men and women can not share sleeping accommodations unless married with children (or a sever medical condition). We both received 2 sets of roommates (ie: 3 single beds in one small room). Being a Culver kid and having attended summer camp, this wasn’t that big of a deal to me, personally I see the benefit in mingling separate from your partner, but when Kailens’ financial mind reminded me that we were paying $400/night EACH to bring our own towels and room with two unknown roommates, I was temporarily bugged.
We pushed our American expectations aside and regrouped with enthusiasm!
The day continued to evolve.
A large plot of dirt (land without many trees or lush gardens) with several buildings and a banyan tree. And nothing organized to do until the programs start with the nearest city 2hours away. What did we get ourselves into?
A flood of mixed emotions. Hesitations and doubts began to swarm our minds. Why am I hear anyway? What am I hoping to get out of this? I kind of went because life was good and I heard this program could make life better! What is the purpose of this journey? I thought I was clear prior to my arrival. I wanted to enhance my healing and doctoring abilities, strip me biogenetic DNA of negativity while awakening the dormant aspects of my internal greatness (as the UNDAs have already done!). I wanted to set myself up for an amazing marriage with Kailen. To strip away any negative root patterns that would be preventing myself from creating the life and success that I desire to create. And I wanted a unique cultural and spiritual experience, one that you would only want to experience once- show up open and ready to receive, form completions and move on with your life.
Am I really going to get that out of this program? Is it worth the time and money?
Something didn’t feel right…